Thursday, September 2

i hate youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

boys

okkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk so this is me blogging about a boy.
i dont wanna sound like one of those fuckwits who just blog about the boy and wants those who reads the post to feel pity for them. no, dont feel pity for me. i just need to rage. FUCKING RAGE.

i seriously dont understand boys.
I DO NOT UNDERSTAND. WHAT THE FUCK.

likeeeeeee... seriously, i dont know if this guy im currently "dating" is stringing me along or what.
I straight up asked him even, if he'd lost feelings or anything. I asked him to give me an honest answer.

he said no. and that he'd never lie to me. I told him, IF YOU EVER LOSE FEELINGS LET ME KNOW.

he's excuse for not calling me or anything was because he'd been busy. fuck off man. what a load of bullshit.

ok yes, it may seem possessive or whatever, but i facebook stalked him. I came across this conversation he had with this other girl. they had been on the phone together.. for what seemed like a while. AND HE HAD AN EXAM TO STUDY FOR. AND HE SAID HE WAS BUSY.
THANKS. THANKS SO MUCH FOR CALLING ME ALSO.

i dont know how im meant to feel. i mean we're not even boyfriend and girlfriend, so i shouldnt even need to care about this shit. he can do whatever he wants. seriously, whatever. but fuck, please let me go if you dont want me. let me know so im not waiting around.

this allllllllways happens to me. this isnt the first time.
the last guy just cut me off. didnt even tell me what was going on. i just want closure. is that too much to ask for. fuck.

i dont get it. i seriously dont get it. its making me lose my mind. sometimes it seems like we've got it going on but then we dont?

last friday we went to watch a movie together, we even kissed and got stufff.
once the weekend went by, NOTHING. things just changed. JUST LIKE THAT.
I HAD JUST FELL FOR HIM. I WAS BEGINNING TO REALLY LIKE HIM.
AND NOW IM STUCK.
i need to leave this shit. im so sick of this shit.

why am i always the one who gets hurt. i should of just left my guards up and not give in to him. fuck him, fucking dickhead. fuck fuck fuck.